100 Ways to Feel Inspired


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There are those times in life when all we need to hear or read is a simple inspirational phrase to accomplish the task set before us. It’s like we know we have the potential but to bring ourselves to manifest this potential seems to be difficult.  “100 Ways to feel Inspired,” is geared to “turn into action” the potential within us, as we continue our journey of love, peace and justice. It is aimed at giving us this sense of focus and direction.  The underlying principle of this book is that life is not determined by its pains and hurts, but rather by our ability to continue to live and contribute significantly to the development of all after we have encountered this challenge. If one person can be helped by this book which has been such an inspiration to the author, then to God the Eternal be continuous Praise! and the author’s goal would have been met.
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This Chance (for Whitney)


Emerald Pool
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Take a breath and release,
This everlasting infinite ride of a chance,
That glides though the isles of man,
Into the infinite abyss where he is sole,
In there take a peek,
And smile at thine own,
For I am born,
Not limited by this flesh of carnal stalk,
In which my dwelling dines,
But together with thine Eternal smile,
We wander and embrace,
All that this world of beauty,
Could ever in its majesty send,
In that one moment,
That graced my tender heart,
To this caressed and blissful sight,
I have arrived. 

Fr. Esprit fmi

Thanks


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Would you please tell that special person,
That you really appreciate them today,
And love them,
Thank them for being there for you.
Not tomorrow, not within the next hour.
I think now would be best,
Don’t you?

Forgiveness


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No one can really understand the depth of the pain you may feel presently,
Even though it can be imagined.
Of course forgiveness is probably far, far away from your mind at this time.
No one is rushing, pushing, or enticing you to walk the roads of forgiveness.
But at some point as you gradually emerge out of this abyss of pain.
Can you find it in your heart to forgive…
Impossibilities do become possibilities,
This is primarily for you,
What is interesting about unforgiveness,
Is that it contains an element of “sweetness” or revenge.
Who does not want to enjoy an “element of sweetness”
This is only the icing or outer coating,
For beneath lies a complex mass of emotional pain,
Which in time should be released,
To walk the roads of forgiveness takes time,
For it is a process,
But eventually we get there,
We believe to harbour unforgiveness is like carrying an extra weight,
That hinders our flight, our path,our growth,
A weight that threatens to get us crumpled,
Should we shed this extra weight,
Then slowly the light of life dawns,
Take your time,
When the time is ready you will know,
Just try not to ignore it or accept it’s finality too quickly,
It’s a process,
You are not alone,
Sooner or later we all walk this road of forgiveness,
It is a road of liberation,
We have already begun,
Courage!

The Child in us and our Spouse


Parts I, II

As a priest for just about eleven years, I am told more often than not, “Father you are single you are not married how would you know” It is said not with any hurtful intention but with an honest heart. They are right. How would I know? I know nothing than trying to understand how to be a good Christian. In addition, as you would know there are no ready-made answers to this question. However, I still believe that I probably can add just a little piece of my accumulated experience (which is not much) to such a compelling, energetic, yet difficult process of maintaining a relationship between couples. I promise I would not bore you! I am no professional, and I am always subjected to correction. The professionals would be more capable to discuss this issue in more detail. This is in no way exhaustive and should not replace the advice of a professional.

It is critical to know thyself. What do I mean by know thyself? Well, know your family. Know what makes us angry or what makes us sad, and of course, what makes us happy for they are all linked into that complex yet unique individual you and me. It is of great importance to pay attention to our family of origin, or our childhood experiences.

Our experiences when we were growing up as children are crucial in understanding our personality today; In fact, there are those who believe that this little child remains with us always. The placement in my family whether I am first, second or third bears very strongly on my personality as an adult. The imprint of who we are today has been laid during the formative early childhood years. Once we understand that, then we are ready to understand what makes us tick and work with it to be a more holistic individual.

There are many complex ways this situation replays itself in relationships. What is not said in relationships are the “little misses” we experienced in our childhood years. They are buried in us. They never leave. We learn how to deal with them and take charge and control them. When the reverse occurs then it can be chaotic, and we just do not understand why we cannot maintain a relationship. Sometimes we move though numerous relationships never really understanding why we find it so difficult to maintain a relationship. There are many complex reasons. However, I would like to develop this one: our childhood.

Very often what makes us angry or what makes our stomach boil over in a relationship with regards to the actions of the spouse, is really not the action of the spouse itself. What really are at play here are the feelings that the actions of my spouse evoke in me. This tends to be the foundation of the issue. The feelings that this actions evokes in me more often than not are emotions that are not new to me. There is a strong possibility that I could have already experience this feeling or emotion when I was a childhood stage or in my family of origin. Now these feelings since they were never address remains hidden in a latent stage; only to evolve when a similar action to that first previous action re-occurs. It is like a sleeping baby that awakes crying uncontrollably. This could be an exaggeration but the the concept of this situation is what I am trying to convey.

These unresolved issues from childhood remain with us as adults and unto the grave if they are not addressed in a healthy manner. Now this may not affect everyone negatively. However, to most of us it does. As soon as we are placed in a situation (as an adult) that is similar to this first painful situation everything comes up. This is not said or rationalised in this way; for the couples may not even be aware of what is happening.

How does this manifest itself? Again, the answers are as varied as the grains of sand on the seashore. In spite of these varieties, there seem to be some patters; withdrawal, anger, feeling s of rejection, an overwhelming impulse to please another, etc. Have we found yourself saying, “Every time you do this or say this you make my blood boil in anger.” Or maybe “I just cannot take that in you”. Very often when these statements are made, they really indicate to the speaker where his /her weakness lies. It is an opportunity for growth. Again, this is easier said than done. The symptoms displayed are really ‘sign posts’ that can be interpreted by the persons involved in a way that allows them to understand themselves better. What the persons will not say is that this reminds them of a situation that they experienced long ago, but the emotions revolving around this (many times unhealthy first situation) springs forth like a bullet. We develop certain negative reactions to certain experiences as adults that may not be encouraging to our present relationship.

This is where some others will say that the child in us rises. Now remember children have a very strong tendency to be selfish. Everything is for me. I must be seen. I must be first. I must get the attention. Have you seen a child in a temper tantrum and after this, the parents have to “lovingly plead with the child to be nice again.” We do that as adults. Now the “child” in us most often can hold us ransom. The ”child” does not want to grow. He/She wants to remain as a child and will do everything in his/her power to remain a child. Now this is all happening in an adult. It is an adult who faces a situation that takes him /her back consciously or unconsciously to an unresolved issue in his/her childhood. (Keep remembering this all occurs in adults.) This “child” we have been carrying in us for so long; this child who has experienced so many “misses and sometimes very painful” in his/her life, so many unresolved issues, is very much present in us as adults. The child’s first reaction is to be impulsive for they have not yet arrived at a formal stage of critical thinking (Piaget).

What really happens as an adult is this child in us takes over. We allow ourselves to be overpowered by this childhood unresolved issue. Sometimes our actions are incomprehensible to us. Our reaction becomes that of a child in anger. We never really express that original childhood experience. Again, what is important here, are the painful emotions related to this experience that replay themselves in us, as adults. (I hope I am not confusing you the reader). What I am trying to say is that there is nothing new under the sun when it comes to relationships. It all begins at our child hood years. The Child in us can be very stubborn. He/she will remember the pain and react from this. When was the last time we said something that to us seemed logical and normal to the issue being discussed, and all of a sudden our spouses response was so different and painful that we ask ourselves. ” Wow where did that come from?” In most cases, though not all, this response came from a past hurtful experience.

The point of liberation comes when we realise that we cannot allow ourselves to be guided by a child. In most cases, an adult decides important and critical issues for children. It is not the reverse. Once we come to that point we then attempt to take control of our lives and allow the little child in us to sleep comfortably for we have already outgrown this child hood stage. Once we can connect to this early child that has been abused or hurt in some way, we begin to make progress. It is important to remember that this child in us will resist all attempts by the adult to resolve this issue. She/he has grown accustomed to this process of survival. The “child” has learnt to survive this way. So too, as adults we have learnt to survive through this method. It is so important to resolve or re-assure the child in us that it is ok, that it will be all right. We really have to speak to ourselves (child) re-assuring this “child” (ourselves) that it will be ok.
“There is no more need to panic or to be afraid.”
“From now on…. I will care for you.”
“I do not need any adult to care for you.”
“I can and will care for you.”
“We are going to do that together you and I.”
“There is no more need to be afraid. I will protect you and care for you.”
“There is no more need to be lonely. I am there for you.”
We may even have to apologise to this little child in us.
“I am so sorry that you felt so alone, so lonely, Oh how you felt so much pain. I am so sorry mummy and daddy were there to protect you. There was no adult to protect you. The pain you felt must have been so terrible. I cannot imagine the amount of pain you have stomached in all these years. Please forgive me for not caring for you enough, for not giving you enough attention, for not listening to you enough.”
“I do love you and promise to care for you as long as I have breath!” “How have I gone in search for an external source to satisfy you, to give you your needs, but they were only temporary, none was sustainable. I now realise as an adult, I am the one who knows your needs the best, Others can and will help but I am the main person responsible to give you the attention and love for which you have been searching. I really promise not to abandon you any more but to care for you. I will protect you and love you.”

After doing this the tears may flow…let them flow. They are tears of healing. We may begin to feel lightness in our waist in our shoulders. We may begin to feel a weight lifted up from us. We begin to feel light. A new joy begins to swell up inside of us. At this moment we have connected with our unresolved issues, the child begins to sleep and sleep well. Slowly we begin to face the situations that once brought out the worse in us without this impulsive reaction. Our holistic personality begins to emerge. We become better individuals and better spouses to our partners. This is all a process and it takes time. The process of forgiveness has begun. Some move through it much faster than others do. The goal is to be aware of what makes us “tick” and work with it. Our past no longer holds us at ransom. We are now free; liberated to make informed decisions. A professional person can be very helpful in helping us to bring healing to this “suffering child.” This takes time and does not happen overnight. What is important is to begin our healing process of our painful memories as an adult. Being aware is crucial here!

The role of prayer is as critical to the issue as this psychological approach. I have found the Bible, Sacrament of confession and the Eucharist as critical to the holistic development of any individual. Since I write from the Judeo-Christian perspective, this is where the Sacrament of confession becomes crucial. The faithful can now take all this pain, hurts, and turmoil and offer it up to God in the Sacrament of Confession. Having the priest tell you exactly that your sins are forgiven in the name of the Father, Son and Spirit is indeed a blessing. It brings up a joy inside that overwhelms us. Should you belong to another religious profession the support of the Scriptures with the guidance of the church’s pastors are very important. Having a spiritual base is very important to that of this approach. It brings the final coating and conclusion, when we finally take everything to God in prayer, through his Son Jesus in the Spirit. Any person irrespective of his faith can begin to find a sense of inner peace through this approach. This is a reality of the human person who is already dignified and blessed in God.

We can now begin to enter into a healthy relationship with our spouses and meet them as our equals. I hope I have not bored you. May God help us all in our path of inner healing; a healing that liberates us!

Part II “The Inner child Child and our Spouse”

Some of the visitors from this blog would have wanted some practical suggestions in terms of embracing this inner child. I hesitate to give practical suggestions for they are not always the best. Why? Practical suggestions tend to limit our “thought processes”. Instead of participating in this wonderful gift of life and be “cool”, we tend to become fixed on said goals. This is not negative, except in this case it is not a fixed gaol. It is living! However, I will propose these simple suggestions, keeping in mind they are subjected to the advice of a professional person. None of the answers we may give is WRONG OR RIGHT. They are just guidelines to help us understand ourselves and to identify “in what way our inner child” influences our life. This may not be applicable to everybody. The inner child does not always influence every individual by limiting his/her inner growth. It is important to enjoy and celebrate the life given to us by God.

– Be aware of self. What do I mean? What are our most liked and disliked qualities?

– This should not be too difficult. Just pay attention to the compliments or challenges from those to whom we are close (family friends). Even what our enemies have to say about us. Smile…it is quite simple.

– What position are we in our families? Are we the first, last or somewhere in the middle. For example if we are first, we may be great at leading, maybe too demanding but maybe overworked as a child. Middle child; great listeners, maybe too altruistic, ignores self a little too much. The last child may be expecting too much from others in his/quest for satisfaction. These are just guidelines. They are not exhaustive. I am concentrating here on the “limiting qualities”. Keep in mind that we have excellent, holistic and health giving qualities that are super!!

– When we are with our loved ones how do we feel?

– When our loved ones do not give us attention what are the emotions that rise in us?(rejection, anger)

– When we fall in love what are the emotions that surge up in us? (joy, happiness, etc.)

– What are our strengths and weaknesses as a person; do we give our hearts out or are we more on the receiving side? When we give what do we expect in return?

– When we do not “get our way” in life, what are the emotions that we feel (rejected, empowered etc)

– When we “get our way,” pay attention to the emotions that rise in us.

– How do we display our anger?

– Do we worry too much and take on too many responsibilities?

These questions are not exhaustive. We may have those of our own. It is not about blaming or regretting. It is about discovering self. Everyone is unique and great! As an adult, we become responsible for our emotions, feelings and actions. It is never too late to become a more “holistic” individual. Pay attention to these answers. Then find out if they are in a balanced state or whether they dominate our lives in a negative way. If we are ok with them, that is fine. If we are not, this could be a sign that the inner child still needs some loving attention from us (not from another person). Do not think of it in terms of “work to be done.” No …it is an awareness. Once we become aware, we have a choice. We can say what the heck…This is how I am, or we can say let me try to become a better person. In other words, we then become a “father” or “mother” to ourselves. The areas in our lives still unfulfilled, we are now in a position to have them fulfilled ourselves. Yes, we can achieve this as adults. Now that we are grown, we can become fathers and mothers to ourselves. We then give to this inner child what they missed out as child. It is important to remember that alongside these “little misses” the great skills and qualities we have learnt from our families as children are also present. These skills and qualities will help us to re-affirm, embrace, and love this inner child. This inner child is now receiving what he/she has lacked. He /she now receives it from the person who loves him/her the most in the world…you!! It is important to apologise to the inner child for we may have as adults abandoned him/her (inside of us) as we searched outside of us for some source of replenishment. We now begin to lead this inner child (not the reverse) who now begins to be more relaxed and at peace. We no longer run from our selves. We begin to accept ourselves. Thus, we become slowly more liberated to be human. We should also keep remembering that our own children may have to experience this healing process of their inner child too. It all comes slowly as awareness. It is not a work like “constructing a house” …no…only an awareness. The next time we are faced with a situation or a challenge, we will suddenly become aware of this new insight and we will naturally react differently.

Our lives are not determined by our limitations. No way! For beneath these limitations is found the grace of God. Where sin is grace abounds! (St. Paul Rom.5:20). We are graced individuals. The process of healing begins, we become more holistic and most importantly we may find ourselves in a better position to enter into a relationship with our spouses. The goal is to live and be contented inside. Let us say the goal is to find our inner liberty and peace in God.

It takes time. It is not an overnight job. Be gentle and kind to self…..above all be kind and just….and have mercy, for this leads to all.. May The Eternal God lead us into peace….Have a great time.

This little child can be very stubborn. What do you think?

May God’s peace be yours!

Fr. Vincent Esprit FMI

Notre Père Apprend-Nous à Aimer


Le but de notre vie ce n’est pas la nôtre,
Le but de notre vie c’est le Père,
Ici bas comme au Ciel,
Jésus est le chemin,
Pour arriver au père,
Le chemin, la vérité et la vie sont à lui,
Une vie véritable de l’amour pour arriver au père,
De rester avec Jésus,
C’est toujours possible car,
Voir Jésus c’est voir le père,
Mais pour ceux qui veulent une relation plus profonde,
Il faut aller jusqu’au but,
A’ découvrir le Père,
Qui est l’amour véritable,
La source de l’amour de Jésus Christ,
Notre père céleste,
Apprend-nous à aimer comme toi,
Apprend-nous à aimer,
Comme tu as appris ton Fils,
Apprend-nous à aimer,
Comme l’Esprit Saint,
Qui vient de toi et ton Fils,
Apprend-nous à aimer,
Comme la Sainte Trinité,
Apprends-nous à aimer tous hommes ici bas,
Sans les conditions humaines !

Our Father in Heaven Teach us to Love


The goal of the Christian life in heaven or on earth,
Does not end with humanity,
Rather,
It ends with the Father in heaven,
Jesus is the way, the truth and the life,
An authentic and radical life of love that leads us to the Father,
To remain with Jesus is always possible,
For to see Jesus is to see the Father,
But for those who desire a more intimate relationship with the Blessed Trinity,
The need to go to the end is possible in love,
It is possible in love to allow Jesus to lead us to the Father in heaven,
Who is Love par excellence,
The source of Jesus’ love,
And the source of all that is love,
Our Father in heaven,
Teach us to love like you,
Teach us to love,
As you taught your Son,
Teach us to love,
As the Holy Spirit that came from you and your Son Jesus,
Teach us to love like the Holy Trinity,
Teach us to love every human being unconditionally.

Are we able to love unconditionally in our world today? Is this attainable?

violence


As the human in me struggles to resist this blow,
That without a word my flesh tears from my jagged bones,
My race to be human is nothing,
but a breath of separation to defeat,

And to my veins red are bathed,
In this sea of unquenchable must,
Ohh how I warned not to test,
To this point of irresistible blood.

But to this now I shall not bow,
For this breath of separation in my vow doth ascend,
And though I struggle to regain my me,
I have not usurped my moment of being.

Who is responsible?


In this refection, I would like to focus on the relationship between the concept of leadership and the responsibility of those to whom this concept is exercised. The goal here is to begin a process of reflection whereby we can become more aware of our responsibility to each other and to our world. These thoughts are very simple and it is in no way comparable to the distinguished and relevant thoughts of the men and women who have already enlightened our minds and actions in this regard.

This ‘overwhelming’ faith and responsibility that humanity places on the shoulders of its leaders, a confidence that seems to abdicate our own responsibility as individuals to find amicable solutions to conflicts, calls for reflection. It is as if we have surrendered our own ability to solve issues and have given that authority to our leaders. We then expect our leaders to perform what seems to be, a kind of ‘magic,’ in solving the issues that confront us. When we do this, we seemingly put them on a pedestal that makes them super humans. Leaders come from the human “stalk.” They are humans like you and me. They come from families. However, should leaders be satisfied in reflecting the value systems already engrained in his or her society or should they attempt to transcend these acceptable norms to bring a new and more enlightened value system? The rules, laws, policies and programmes administered by any concept of leadership should not diminish the rights and responsibilities of its members as individuals, families or groups to nation building. On the contrary, it should be a complement and a catalyst in helping those entrusted to their care to critically analyse issues and to be able to manifest these analysed ideas into concrete realities for the common good. Pope Benedict XVI in his Encyclical “Caritas in Veritate” or “Charity in Truth” writes, “Besides the good of the individual, there is a good that is linked to living in society: the common good. It is the good of “all of us”, made up of individuals, families and intermediate groups who together constitute society. It is a good that is sought not for its own sake, but for the people who belong to the social community and who can only really and effectively pursue their good within it. To desire the common good and strive towards it is a requirement of justice and charity. ”

I do not have the answer but I believe a possible solution to some of the major problems we face today may be found within the sphere of dialogue, mutual trust and forgiveness. Will we ever be able to sit, face each other, forgive and move on? Is that asking too much from us who form the human stalk on this earth? Sometimes we tend to forget that we are the only known ‘rational species of life’ living in this universe up to today. This implies differences and opposing views coupled with their consequences. However, it also requires from us the exercising of our ability to solve issues without resorting to violence, i.e. in an amicable manner. This capacity is inherent in every human person. It is just not developed. The human person, fundamentally good, is constantly faced with evil, and sometimes in his weakness succumbs to it. Since we did not create humanity, then the Creator has imbedded deep within every one of his creatures the ability to overcome negativity. This capacity is more fundamental to us than the reverse. Had we not this capacity, there would not have been a human being present today. The fact that we live on this earth with all our problems is itself a testimony to our ability to overcome the “badness” in us. This is a testimony to the fact that we have chosen life and not death. To ignore this is to dwell persistently in our inability to effectively address the problems that threaten us as humans in our world. Am I too naive to believe that in putting our point of emphasis in the areas of commonality and approaching our differences in a spirit of mutual respect and dialogue, the possibility for a more peaceful world would dawn on us today? Is it an opportune time to be more oriented towards serving each other, a service that is directed to the dignity of every human person? Can our differences lead us to a greater appreciation of the diversity expressed in the human world and the need for a greater fostering of dialogue, where mutual trust becomes foundational? Does forgiveness have any place in our pluralised and secularised world where so quickly our once held “common grounds” become obsolete and thus the return of the cliché “more questions than answers?”

In the final analysis, our common goal should not be about self-justification. It is not about who is right and who is wrong. The essential guiding principle for today and the future should revolve around what is important for the human as individuals, families, countries, and the world (not necessarily in this order). When will we open our eyes to see that the ultimate process to effectively beginning to solve our issues, should not “overwhelmingly” lie in the hands of our leaders, neither should it remain with those who take justice in their own hands. Rather, a consolidated programme based on dialogue, mutual trust and forgiveness should guide our actions of every individual. Coupled with this we should also add the return to basic human values of concern, caring and the respect for every individual despite his/her race, colour, creed, or sex. The basic responsibility for the world lies with every human being and not with those whom we seemingly ‘set apart’, to solve the problems to which we all have created or contributed in some way or another. Leader plays an indispensible role, but one that is understood as “being intrinsic” to humanity’s aspirations. One of the basic functions of the leader is to create an environment in which the members can be cared for; a caring that allows each to thrive, grow and to become not a superhuman but a just simply human. As a leader, I am not able to solve it all, and thus I refrain from giving such impressions. If I do the latter, I would tend to hinder the blossoming of future leaders in the home, groups, countries and the world. The challenge for all leaders is to create this formational environment.
As we continue to strive to “create” responsible men and women to lead, guide, and mould and shape us may we continue to consider the importance of every individual, an importance that needs to be felt and experienced. It is my hope that every individual will find his/her place in this world, a place that allows him/her to make a humble and valid contribution to the work of Justice and peace. I think it is an opportune time to thank all our leaders – those alive and those who have passed – for working with us in fostering programmes based on justice, peace, and responsibility.

In conclusion, I am tempted to as ask how does this reflection apply to us as Caribbean people, whose ancestors have laid the foundation for our independent states today? With the rise of secularisation, where we find it increasingly difficult to find a common ground from which we can all evolve, the need for dialogue, trust and forgiveness is even more apparent. My desire is that everyone who reads this reflection will see the task of the continued creation of our world not so much as the responsibility of his/her neighbour, but rather the responsibility of each of us, beginning with me. May we not ignore the power of ‘praying with the scriptures’ as a guide in this process. Through this meditation, we are able to enter into an experience that allows us to see, judge and act, an action that is not isolated, but one that resonates within the concepts of justice, peace and responsibility for the common good of humanity. May God bless us all in our efforts at moulding and nurturing our leaders.

Moonlight


Lunar libration. see below for more descriptions
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Your voice to my youth still calls,
As to your paradise we all escaped,
where time was not of a moments sense,
In that golden jewel of glory light.

We played we laughed we cried a chorus,
As our wills to your fields descended,
And your smile to our hearts ascended,
These days of yonder all to ponder…..

But now in my years of growth,
Where the bowels of you is ever so clever,
I yearn not to rekindle this mother,
For her veins though not younger,
Is safe in my memory’s chamber,

And so I smile….

I fell


I do not believe it,
But it is true,
Of all the days of my life,
Today,
I have fallen,
And oh What a pleasant fall,
In love,
To be,
To be human,
To understand,
That Jesus fell in love with humanity,
And for that his life on a cross ended,
But through this seemingly defeat,
Everlasting life flowed into my veins.

Just Write


Take a breath and release,
This everlasting infinite ride of a chance,
That glides though the isles of man,
Into the infinite abyss where he is sole,
In there take a peak,
And smile at thine own,
For I am born,
Not limited by this flesh of human stalk,
In which my dwelling dines,
But together with thine Eternal smile,
We wander and embrace,
All that this world of beauty,
Could ever in its majesty send,
In that one moment,
That graced my tender heart,
To this caressed and blissful sight,
I have arrived.

the pen


You lie on the desk,
Never wanting to be your own,
This you seem to tell,
Waiting for that touch.

So easily you submit your will,
Into the hands of the trusted,
This you seem to tell,
As the trusted’s will,
Beckons your command.

They rejoice in your calmness,
As without a word to the contrast,
To the task you ride,
WIth non other but the trusted,

So many are the secrets,
That pass through your veins,
So many are the thoughts,
That you hinder not,
As to the task you sride.

You feel the pressure this pressure,
Its getting stronger,
Your breath is almost gone,
Your legs to the slumber almost,
You wonder what is wrong,
The unbearable pressure in the fingers,
The trusted what have I done.

But all too soon you realise,
This feeling to you is new,
Its another to be added to your brain,
The anger of the trusted,
Even this you innocently take.

Oh your waist is gone,
This time you are broken,
And tosed in the bin,
No turning back,
You lie, no memory,
No feeling,
No one to help,
You have been used,
Abused,
Discarded.

And all too quickly,
The trusted have another pen found,
With no regard for you.
And so the story goes.

The trusted.

The encounter


To think that my flesh and blood is already in heaven,
What a thought,
That to my being eludes,
No other explanation renders me more satisfying,
Than that of my humanity.
It is graced, blessed, honored, and digified,
By him whose death on the cross did not see the face of curruption.
To prove an empty grave,
But what physical proof is this?
Compared to the jewel of that faith,
That beyond any shatttered doubt,
Keeps me running the race.
All because of the Saviour,
Whose ascenion into eternity,
Did not leave behind a speck of that physique,
So as I trod through lifes endless wanders,
That all too soon descend in the bowels of this classic,
My eyes are fixed to that Which I believe.
As I walk to the finish line,
To await this crowning,
Which has become that of mine.

A voice in the wilderness


I thought I should write,
I thought I should on paper and freeze this moment,
But What should seize my attention,
I thought I should stay with this economic crisis,
But who would listen,
I thought I should write on xenophobia,
In escaping the word racism,
I thought I should write on crime,
when so many future problem solvers,
In a cemetery have fallen asleep,
I thought I Should comment on this ash,
Which from Iceland spurts forth,
But torn between fertile lands and travelllers,
I thought I should bring down globalisation,
But what Should I say,
Maybe I could write on Obama’s victory,
But this history has already been frozen,
Then of what should I write,
I thought I should settle on global warming,
But economics would render me not,
Well why not write on modernism,
But postmodernism would hold me ransom,
I really thought to give christianity a call,
But where to start in its divisions,
I thought that nature would be best,
But the price of development is too high,
Well finally I thought I should stop here,
And continue this thought another day,
But still I thought…